First Time... ^_^

First time?? hago.a bah... pero cge lang... ana man jud na.. ^_^

It's so hard... But still not losing..

I'm putting a lot of effort but still didn't work.. all my shame came out of me but still I failed.. How much effort will i bear in order to make this a success?? It sounds easy but in reality.. It's a long way to run... But I hope that things will get on my way sooner or later.. and hoping to succeed on what I was planning for... God bless for me.. ^_^

Watching myself Suffer

It's hard to see someone suffer right in front of you.. It tears my heart in to pieces when seeing someone struggling in order to live.. The downfall inside of me keeps on going and going.. I feel useless when someone throws me some words like "Di man diay ka kabalo", "Ayaw pag.tugatuga", "wa kay pulos", etc..

But I know that myself will not give up... And because of it, I myself will not give up either..


"kaya kaayo na jam.. ayaw kabalaka.. tabangan taka hantod sa akong makaya.."

Losing is not an option but it cannot be escaped

Losing?... sometimes, it is hard for me to accept this kind of declaration because all the efforts that I made will be no use. Every struggles I do counts as if my life is depending on it. But still, losing to something I don't want to lose sometimes can't be escaped. Even though losing has benefits like learning something useful in the near future. still, it's not enough for me. It is disappointing and depressing for my part who struggled so hard in order to win something. But still I won't give up. I will still fight for my side even if I know that I will still lose in the end.

hehehe..FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT! LOSE LOSE LOSE.... (^_^)

mysterious

Yesterday (September 20) was a tiring but happy and fulfilling day.(^_^)

I am happy because even though we had a band presentation in every service in our church starting from 5 in the morning until 9 in the evening and it was tiring. But I still did not give up on playing even though I had an injury in my left feet. YES!!! But behind my accomplishment yesterday, I was shock to notice this kind of situation. It was a mysterious one because in all of my performance in a band, this was the first time that I experience it and it was a shocking one. heh heh heh. It happened when we were playing the song entitled "rain down". At first, it was a smooth performance but when the band reached in the second chorus of the song. My middle finger in the right arm won't move! I was shocked in that time because when I am playing, I usually use may two fingers inorder to make sound but in that time I was forced to use one finger. hah hah hah. I forced my middle finger to move but it did not move at all. But I did not stop playing in that time until in the time when we reached the outtro part of the song.

For me, it was a weird experience because the position of my finger when it was not moved was in a curve form. But I was still happy because I experience that situation even though I was not nervous. Only Tired.(^_^)

Never stop believing

I know that this post sounds common to all of us specially to those people who seek something. But for me, I want to express more. I want to clarify and understand something. Something that I can learn from my past situations. Something that will make my life more meaningful. I just want to believe. Never Stop Believing.(^_^)

A sound of Music that comes from the heart

woooow! it's been a long time that I did may last post here in my blog. But anyway, it's good to be back.(^_^)


For those musician that who actually played in a stage. Did you ever feel the music that you play in a crowd? If it is 'YES'. Then it's good but if it is 'NO', you already know the answer. hehehe. I my self experience this situation many times. especially when I play with a bad mood.(-_-) I kept on thinking on why am I not satisfied on what I am doing? Sometimes I feel discourage on what output I usually give in my band. In that time, I was confused on how to solve this kind of situation. Until one time, I saw a live performance of our co-musicians in this city. It was great! so much passion! and also, they gave all their best efforts to make their music sound good. In that live performance, I (again. hehe..) realized something important. Something like "A sound of music that comes form the Heart". It was the most solid realization that I ever realized in my entire life. (^0^) And because of it, I keep on practicing on how to make this effective in my skills in music. And little by little, I manage to solve it but it's not yet firm that's why until now I'm hoping to feel the music that we always play. heheh.(^_^)

In this post, I just want to say that keep on making and playing great music and also don't forget to feel the sound of music that comes from your heart. Because of it, great musicians are born.


sensya sa wrong grammar..v(^_^)v